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“I just wanna rock all night long, and put you in the middle of my spotlight”

Hi, it’s confession time!

Ok to start with, I want you to meet this cool guy above. His name is Kris (Wu Yi Fan irl), as what everyone in the fandom calls him. He was born Dec. 6 1990 (which means he’s older than me by 3 years), fully chinese and speaks 4 fucking languages (english, mandarin, korean & cantonese) like a boss. He was raised in Canada, VA to be exact. First impressions when you met/know him: awkward, scary, serious, hot (lol yes) HOT. He can sing, dance, rap and act. Many people are running after him and when I say many, I mean it. not ten, not twenty but hundreds and thousands of people esp girls (and I admit I am one of them TuT). In short, HE IS A CELEBRITY. He’s been in the industry for not more than a year yet. A famous namja whom I like so much right now. Infatuation or not idk i just can’t explain the feeling (geol, i can’t explain what i feel). To tell you, one of the reasons why I suddenly went on hiatus last month is bec of this stupid guy (and lol good thing my internet got cut so that was a big help). I was about to close down all of my accts bec I think I fell so much for kpop that I already forgot the real world that I’m in. well so much for that let’s move on…..So yeah, joahe Krees ;~; If he wasn’t into kpop I highly doubt I’d be able to like him or even recognize his face. I liked someone else at first (also came from his group) but not the way that I feel for him. Kris is a brother/best friend/boyfriend/husband material. like the fuck he’s almost perfect in everything. I know there are much more good things about him which people close to him are aware of. Things i wanna know too one day. A wish I want to happen irl is to be friends with him (crazy as you think, but yeah i wanna befriend Kris ok, who wouldn’t?) Anyway, i had this dream about him that involves my future journey but I’d rather not tell bec you think I might just be making stories but srsly when I woke up, I CHOKED. It was like episodes from different fanfics that had molded into one story. Holy mother of cows, I so wanted it real. Kris, you beautiful guy, I know there’s only 5% chance (or more little than that) I will be able to meet and greet you in real life. But I hope someday, someone like you will come into my life and make me happy the way you do to me right now. I don’t know or care when, I’m not in a hurry. I just want every moment of us to be memorable. The reason why I did this is bec of my last post. I read it somewhere that writing a confession about your dream guy can give you happy feelings and at the same time, could also loosen you up. And there it is. You are my model of a dream guy. Thank you for bringing the sunshine into my life. I’m sorry I couldn’t stop swearing/squealing whenever I see photos or videos of you. It’s your fault though, you know that. I still have so much to say but I’m already running out of english #3rdworldproblem lol. I guess I’ll just keep it on my mind. Wufan, I will always be your loyal fan. I will always be supporting in any ways I can. So much an……pmsl. Anyway, Goodluck! ♥

My Happy Ending

I know that nobody’s perfect, but this won’t stop me from hoping that someday, someone who’s perfect for me will come. He will be caring, loyal, and kind. He will have pretty eyes and genuine smile, and he will not let me experience bad things in a relationship. Every time I’m with him, I will feel very comfortable and happy. We will be good together, and good for each other.

Someday, I will fall in love with the right person, at the right time, and for all the right reasons. And when that happens, I will not get so caught up in him that I will forget all the little things I love about myself, like going out with friends, spending time with the family and with God. He will help me achieve my little goals every day (like getting high scores in exams and being able to finish college!) and even support me in pursuing my grandest, craziest dream: to be a Super Hero!

I may not run into the person I deserve anytime soon, but that’s okay; I have my whole life ahead of me. I’m not in a hurry. I know the perfect guy is out there, and he is also looking for me. And when we do find each other, it will be real and wonderful and epic and unforgettable. And I will know for sure that the long wait—-and maybe even the heartbreaks that came with it—-was totally worth it!

Thoughts…

I seriously think I need a break from all these craziness especially kpop. I think i’m going insane every time i work on the internet. Things are making me break down in just a sec like wtf i wasn’t like this before. I blame my weak heart for everything. I want something change. Something new. ahhhh life, why the heck!? I want to but the question is, can I ever do such? that i don’t know :(

School’s out. Pulls summer in.

i just want to be on the beach, sunburn.